Saturday, July 21, 2007

There comes a time when you finally snap. You give and give, until you can't give anymore. And you don't know what to do. After everything, you still don't know where you stand. And you don't much care anymore.

I thought everything was getting better and I hear that. I think I've heard enough. I think I've paid more than my dues to karma by now.

I need a shot.

I need more than a shot.

Posted by Min @ 3:13 AM, ,


Thursday, July 19, 2007

When I was young, I never cut my nails at night because I was afraid an old, shrivelled-up witch would take them, brew a potion and turn herself into a replica of me. Then steal my life - kind of like an identity theft.

I still think about that witch. And I still don't cut my nails at night. But now, I think it's more of an issue of laziness than fear of getting a clone.

Which brings me to this - I am lazy. Lazy, lazy, lazy. And I am also tired and sleepy. Oh no, forgot to shoot out an email. And I finally got my gas/electricity activated for 18 August at 230AM. After calling the company 4 times, faxing my identification 2 times, repeating my name and address countless times, I am FINALLY done with dealing with utilities on my side. Also got most of my weekly assignments for History done, still have that essay due on the 23rd though. ): Sigh. I don't like research papers. Or sedimentary rocks. I don't really care about rocks. Do you?

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Sunday, July 15, 2007

We smashed Jeremy head-first into his little cake there after this photo was taken. Sigh, actually we didn't. I wish we did though.
That was Thursday night. Rushed down to Mich's place after that to change and pick her, Alicia and Xinwei up. Then Mel. Lucky girl is graduating by the end of this year. And I'll still be in my 3rd semester only. And off to Zouk! Where I only got 2 shots, which I had to beg for with Mich! The event itself was the most boring thing ever. Hot tranny though! HAHA. And cute No. 10!
Friday night, I hit Arab Street with the gang. Well Arab St after dinner at Lau Pa Sat. Where the set time of 630PM was totally disregarded. Kurn and I were waiting almost 2 hours! We could've had an appetizer, main course, dessert, drinks and they still would've been MIA.
After dinner we did the whole, standing-in-a-circle-blocking-traffic Singapore thing. Haha! Which is what happens outside Man Wok, Lai Lai Wok, and any other Wok! And finally decided to go to Arab St! (Choices: Marina Bowling, Cuppage Pool, Unknown Bar, Simpang Bedok.) You can imagine how long we were standing there trying to decide.

Smoking shee-sha is good for you! While you are taking in smoke, it does not have any tobacco in it! So you don't get addicted. Side effect? You might get addicted to breathing in smoke. And then upgrade to actual ciggys.
Kurn! Who saw Eugene doing his ----star pose below.
Eugene looking like a ----star.

Ahhh. And Sunday. Woke up early to go to Holy Fam with MT. Then met Fiona to go down to Experiences at Suntec. Where I saw Green-Bag, and Blue-Stripe-Earring. =)~ Then I saw Black-Jacket. After which spoilt my mood. SIGH! And I gorged myself. ): Yoghurt + Ice Cream + Some Indo dessert. See what depression does? Bad bad road to go down.

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Friday, July 06, 2007

I'm BRACE-LESS. Woo? =D

Ecstatic. Delirious with Joy.

And it was Fiona's 21st Birthday! (:
Dinner at the Grand Hyatt's Mezza9 - Fionana, M Tree, Pokpok, Hui Wei & Me!
Deli food, even better dessert~*
Went bowling at Marina South after dinner! Haha. Glam dress + Ugly bowling shoes = Fiona!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA!





Posted by Min @ 2:26 AM, ,


Thursday, June 28, 2007

sooner or later, someone will disappoint you. but not everyone i think, 'cause not everyone matters to the extent that it will really hurt you. it might sound bad, but it's the truth. how much a person can hurt you is how close you are to that person.

sooner or later, you will disappoint someone too. it really is inevitable. and when you do, you'll regret it. but you can't change the past. you can't take it back, no matter how much you wish you could.

and sometimes, it's better that way. sometimes, that hurt makes you stronger, that regret makes you want to be a better person. and sometimes, it makes your relationship stronger. that or it just kills whatever's left of it.

which is bad. bad. bad. and you just have to keep trying to make up for that disappointment. it doesn't help playing the blame game, it'll only make things worse. so either give in, compromise or screw it. it'll be so draining, and you'll want to give up so many times. but if that person is worth all the pain then, fuck you're screwed if that person doesn't feel the same way.

(:

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

Something I got off Azhar's blog. It hits home, and I'm sure it will too with you.

Dr. Alan Zimmerman's Comments:

Sooner or later, everyone you know will disappoint you in some way. They'll say something or fail to say something that will hurt you. And they'll do something or fail to do something that will anger you. It's inevitable.

Unfortunately, you make things worse when you stew over someone's words and deeds. When you dwell on a rude remark or an insensitive action made by another person, you're headed for deeper problems.

In fact, the more you dwell on these things, the more bitter you'll get. You'll find your joy, peace and happiness slipping away. And you'll find your productivity slowing down as you spend more and more time thinking about the slight or telling others about it.

TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR FEELINGS. Even though the other person may be at fault, even though the other person wronged you, you are still responsible for your own feelings.

In other words, other people do not "cause" your feelings. You choose them. For example, two different people could be told that their suggestions made at the staff meeting were "stupid and idiotic." One person may "choose" to feel so hurt that he never speaks up at any other meeting again. The other person may "choose" to feel sorry for the critic, sorry that the critic couldn't see the wisdom and necessity of her suggestions.

As long as you blame other people for your feelings, as long as you believe other people caused your feelings, you're stuck. You're a helpless victim.

But if you recognize the fact that you choose your feelings and you are responsible for your feelings, there's hope. You can take some time to think about your feelings. And you can decide what is the best thing to say or do.

Then, you've got to learn to WALK AWAY FROM DISAPPOINTMENT. It's difficult to do, but it's possible.

And what can you do about anything once it is over? Not much. You can try to correct it if it is possible, or you can walk away from it if it isn't. Those are your only two choices.

Sometimes you've just got to shake it off and step up.

Finally, you need to FORGIVE. It's difficult, especially when the other person doesn't deserve your forgiveness or doesn't even seek it. It's difficult when the other person is clearly in the wrong. Part of the difficulty comes from a common misunderstanding of forgiveness. Forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person's behaviour is okay. And forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person is off the hook. He's still responsible for his misbehaviour.

Forgiveness is about letting yourself off the emotional hook. It's about releasing your negative emotions, attitudes, and behaviours. It's about letting go of the past so you can go forward to the future. Everyone in your life, everyone on and off the job is going to disappoint you. If you know how to respond to those situations, you'll be way ahead of most people. You'll be able to live above and beyond your circumstances.

Identify two people that have disappointed, hurt, or angered you. If possible, select two people towards whom you still have some bitterness. Then ask yourself, "How does my bitterness serve me? Am I happier holding on to it? Do I sleep better? Is my life richer, fuller, and better because of my bitterness?"

If you find that your bitterness is hurting you, make a decision. Actually decide to let it go. Walk away from the disappointment - which means you no longer dwell on it or talk about it.

Posted by Min @ 2:39 PM, ,


Saturday, June 09, 2007

Penguin saw a naked girl in the snow. Happy Penguin.


Penguin feeling right at home.

He looks like the KFC Colonel. Stupid MT.

Quek playing soccer.

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I forgot to post these the last time.
Cheahcheah doing the Dunk!


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Thursday, June 07, 2007

Should I do a single degree in 3 years?
A double degree in 3.5 years?
Or A double degree in 4 years?

I'm in a dilemma. I prolly won't be able to handle a double in 3.5 years. I'm not built to study!!!

Sigh.

Where are you?

Posted by Min @ 1:20 AM, ,


Tuesday, May 29, 2007

I'm the worst updater ever. I'm sorry. Do people even come here anymore?

I'm back in Singapore already though. And I've met like, the whole bunch of you at one shot too! It was great being back and hanging out with you guys again. Just like back in the ole JC days.
When we were young! We had fun! We barely studied! We skipped classes! We had fun! We were young. Feel aaaalright.

And there are ants crawling over my white macbook. It's like... black on white? I can see you, you stupid ant, and very clearly too. Stupid ant. Ants annoy me. Especially when they're crawling around my table. I mean, if I see you on the ground, it's your territory, so I don't mind. But on my table?

I MISS YOU.

Posted by Min @ 9:53 AM, ,


Wednesday, March 14, 2007

I watched 300 today - was a pretty good movie. SO much better than Bridge to Terabithia!!!!!! Gawd, that movie? I'd like to burn every single one of them in Champaign. Horrible movie.

So compared to that, 300 was god-sent! A lil' gory though, but not so realistic 'cause the way the whole movie was filmed was kind of fantasy-ish. Think the part where the Spartan's head was sliced off (the son of the captain), was the grossest one.

Anyways, eyes are feeling hot, tearing. Sigh. Don't know why. My hair's still drying. I shouldn't sleep yet.

Posted by Min @ 2:25 PM, ,


Monday, March 12, 2007

It's Monday morning 3AM.

Spring 2007 & the Senior batch's LAST apartment crawl was held Saturday night.
We crawled from Poon's to ZX's, and some all the way to Joe's and back again!

Photos are all in Poon's camera. I gave up on mine 'cause it's really too slow.

Now I'm sleepy and tired.

Woke up at 1PM, rushed down for breakfast. Tried to do work, instead surfed Facebook. Went to help clean up ZX's apartment. ZX! Not JG! (laughs) Then did some work. Hot Wok-ed. Did some more work. Then helped clean up Poon's apartment. Then did my Mallard.

Yeeeah. Story of my life. How exciting~!

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Saturday, March 10, 2007

I walked today. Needed to think. But walking around campus at 2 in the morning in the cold doesn't really give you much time to think about anything other than It's cold and I hope no-one's going to mug me. So I guess that was a failure. Like everything else. Am feeling a little off now. Again. Mood swings yet again. I'm tired now. Am I supposed to wait?

Posted by Min @ 4:58 PM, ,


Sunday, March 04, 2007

My wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to.
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small.
You never need to carry more than you can hold.
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you.
My song for the moment. It's a little country.

Sitting here in the LAR lounge, again. Came down to do the 203 Mallard. But alas, realised my Excel is lousy. And I can't do regression 'cause of lousy Excel. But kind, kinda Jeremy has decided to lend me his Office 2007. THANKS!! So until then, I shall go self-study since I skipped lab on Friday, and try to do it w/o the computer.

Ahhh...

I'm just recovering from the most disgusting week of the year. 2 midterms for 2 Econ courses. 1 essay for 1 Rhet course, which I really don't like. But go anyways, 'cause if I don't go, I could potentially get another D. Which is bad.

I think I bombed 203. BADBADBAD. I think I crapped alot in 302. BADBADBAD. I think my 105 was a lousy piece of work. BADBADBAD. But, it's over! And I shall not think about it, until results are out. Then I can go sit in a corner and brood.

Downed 8 cans of Red Bull and lots of coffee the past week. Too much caffeine, plus less food. Equals to bad stomach-aches and all around lousy mood. Not good. Worse, my throat's acting up. I really hope I don't get sick. Slept in till 10am this morning, slept again from 2pm to 4pm. Think that helped a little. Hope the cough goes away by tomorrow. Mean Goh. Make fun of my cough.

Anyways, some of them booked the badminton courts again today. From 8-10pm. I went down at 9pm. Cold, outside. Oh, it snowed again too! Anywayss, had a good time at Freer. (: Laughed till I couldn't play, collapsing all over the court with Hui Wei. Lol. I think we irritated our game-mates! :D

So we were happily throwing the shuttlecock around.
With DQ's racket flying to the court behind us.
Hui Wei prancing around the court.
Zhen Wah killing us with his fierceness.
The badminton game turned into a volleyball game.
And poor Jeremy didn't want to play volleyball, so he went away.
Then it became a sepak takraw game.
Not very good, though. Ball going all over the place.
Also hitting this stranger on the head in the court next to us.
Courtesy of Uiaik! Who banged his head in the process while crawling away in shame.
Uiaik, who also did a perfect slam dunk! Photos I'll post next time!

Anyways, it's super cold in the lounge right now. I'm gonna go get my jacket when Lin Yan comes back.

Posted by Min @ 3:31 PM, ,


Sunday, February 25, 2007

I'm so sorry for disappointing you.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner.
I'm sorry I made you worry.
...You're the best!

Posted by Min @ 12:15 AM, ,